Our Baby's Almost 3

For the time continues to move faster even though I have forever begged for it to slow so I can have AJ small forever.

In 4 days our baby will no longer be 2 but the energetic 3 year old. Lately I have revisited the memories of finding out I was pregnant, to having so much trouble carrying him, to the labor, to bringing him home the first time, the first smile, walk, talk. It makes me sad in a way to know he is no longer the baby I have always wanted, but has become the little boy I can’t believe I have.

Desperate to keep him small I do little things like the holding him and rocking him only for him to tell me stop mom, get my blanket and I will lay on the couch.

To the yelling of mom help me to him now saying I can do it go away.

He is forever my baby no matter his age. He has decided on a big construction party. Dang does time fly. So a busy weekend is planned with his party Saturday, to the Easter Bunny coming Sunday and his Birthday Monday.

But with a busy weekend planned, I do have some news that has saddened me.

In May I will have to be going to Las Vegas for 4 days, with 4 other people from my office. Although I am excited to see the strip, I am have a few things I am upset about. 1 I have never spent more than 1 night away from AJ or Brad for that matter. The 1 night was after gall bladder surgery. 2- I swore I would never fly on a plane again in my life after our senior trip to washington dc.

I am terrified to get on a plane, and its scaring the holy crap out of me. If I don’t go on this trip I can lose my job, 10 years there and I might lose it over getting on a plane. I think I might need to go to the dr and get some sort of pills to help me.

Any advice on the being away from AJ?

New Chapter

A lot has been happening in our lives lately, and hopefully after Brad and I being together for 5 years we can close a chapter in our lives and Brad, A.J., and I can take each others hand and jump into a new chapter of our book.

The biggest task is believe AJ will be 3 in a few weeks. Its amazing all the things he can do, and can remember. I was talking to my mom and grandpa yesterday and I bought him a phone that has pictures on it and you push the picture of the person you want to call. Well there is a picture of Micah on there when she was younger, and so for that I programmed my cousin Brock's phone number in. Well I told my grandpa Micah's picture now has Brocks number back on it, and AJ said and Jennifer. He has ony met Jennifer in person once.

The funny thing is she made such an impression on him, he will tell you she tickled him and played with him at moms. Too funny. So his memory is great. I only wish I had that great of one.
Secondly me dealing with turning the big 3-0- this year. Oh gosh it is killing me. I thought turning 25 was horrible cause I was half to 50, well now I am even closer. Depression is setting in on this one.

I can't stop it but I am really hating it. I told Brad I want to be left alone, no phone calls, no mail, no nothing. I don't want anyone to make any deal over this. I have a feeling mom will be the worst.

Well I have to go but I will post AJ's b-day pictures after his party..
LOVE TO YOU ALL.
AMY